My father telling me we had to move was the worst thing my head had heard in it's entire life.
But my in my heart it felt like it was something that had to be done for my life to be completed.
It all happened very quickly, in less than two weeks we were on our way.
Sad to leave my friends, the few I had, but somehow everything felt right. And the voices had been wispering every night, allways the same thing, "the revered, the revered, the revered." it was allmost like chanting, it was strange, it was something I had never known the voices to do before. Still it did not frighten me, the words just seemed to sooth me somehow, like they were calling for a friend I had not seen in a long time, that I was about to meet again. But how could that be, it was words.. not a name.
But I didn't think much about it, I figured it would all be alright in the end anyways.
My first day at school was very interesting or it might be interesting is not the right word.
I am used to people staring at me wispering behind my back and thinking I am odd, but it usually starts when they know me, or at least know about me and the fact that I sometimes knows what is coming.
The place we moved to was just a small village everyone knows everyone and anyone new is an outsider, if I can call it that.
Everyone spent the whole day staring at me and even though I said "Hi" and tryed to start a conversation I didn't even get as much as a sound back, just silent looks.
It was like that the first two weeks but I didn't give up.
It was a friday afternoon my second week there when I noticed a girl I had never seen before and no wonder why, she was hidden between a locker and a wall, for some reason the lockers don't seem to be put all the way to the wall and I always wonder why. But that is not what I was telling you about.
I walked towards her, she looked so fragile and when she saw me her eyes opened up wide in fright, she looked as she thought I would hurt her, but she was so beautiful.
My heart wouldn't let me do what my head told me to.
My head said go speak to her my heart had me just standing there watching her.
It acctually took me a few days to approach her and every night between the two days the voices told me "Let her calm down, let her get used to the thought, just a few more days, just one more day"
and suddenly one morning just before I woke up the voices said "Today is the day"
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